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doin it well

Mon, 20 Aug 2007 07:25:55 GMT

i feel as though i need to be single, theres just times that i dont know if i should be doing what i love, being with someone i love. the person says this but they do another. They say they love you but to their friends its nothing, you feel as though you dont exist to them, and they dont notice that either. i know they make fun of you behind your back and everything..maybe its just me. ive noticed taht i tend to push away people that i love, thinking i might just get hurt. aHH more of this later, to aggrivated to type

Friday, August 03, 2007

Fri, 03 Aug 2007 21:10:07 GMT

I dont feel like i could go out into the world. This might seem like im over reacting, but its been said by one person that i care about. maybe thats why people stare at me because im ugly, i know that now. god, this totally makes me think twice about myself now. This is going to make me so paranoid more than ever.

control

Fri, 20 Jul 2007 23:07:17 GMT

so J was supposed to call me back but its been like five hours already, and still no sign of any calls. The past few days, i ve been feeling as though J is doing something behind my back again. Though J says i love you and everything, i just dont feel that its genuine. at times i feel so stupid, i feel like so underappreciated. I really do feel like there is someone else..i cant help but feel that way. i need to learn to control my emotions..god i just hate feeling like this everytime...everytime!!

cracker

Wed, 18 Jul 2007 11:47:36 GMT

wow, its been almost 4 months since the last time i posted on here. i am coming back because that period of time that i havent been on here had many shit and other things that went on, and i just need some place to vent out things, and i dont write in my poem book no more, so i guess this is a good place to do so too. all my life, i was surrounded by people who cheated or was cheated on in a relationship, and i told myself that i would never let myself be one of that, yet it did happen to me, someone that i truly beleive i could spend my life with (i know im still young, but i think im ready), the one i truly gave my trust and my heart to once again, the same heart that i have kept in a box for such a long time, the same heart that i kept telling to stop beating, the same heart that was stepped on, pushed around and was totally ignored, but yet i gave this love thing a try again. But to my dissapointment, i was cheated on, and i still cant beleive it happened to me, it was the most hurtful thing to me...mentally, emotionally and i could say physically. But we are trying to work things out for the better i guess.

TORNinBETWEENtheTWO

Sun, 25 Mar 2007 10:04:18 GMT

TORN IN BETWEEN THE TWO
' c a u s e i r e a l l y w a n t t o b e w i t h y o u
But   something is   telling   me   I   should leave
L E A V E Y O U A L O N E
what.hurts.the.most.is.when.we.started.out
It   was   cool, it   was   everything   that love's   about
BUT s o m e t h i n g HAPPENED
' c a u s e I ’ m f e e l i n g s o b u r n e d o u t
' C a u s e I c a n ' t u n d e r s t a n d y o u   n o w
A PART OF ME WANTS TO LEAVE
But a part   of   me   wants to be   here   with you
And everytime I think that it's over and done
YOU MAKE ME FALL BACK IN LOVE
Y O U G O T M E   J U S T    T O R N
♥

update change..

Wed, 27 Dec 2006 09:38:55 GMT

Well I have decided to update this ish. Its almost a new year and I want things to be different, and since i havent been on this xanga in a long time, i guess i should update it. Whats new? I got a new car..two cars actually, first one i got into a bad car accident (hit and run..someone rear-ended me then ran off). I wanted a new or second part-time job, but somehow, my managers didnt want me to, because i guess if i got a job and my all time favorite store (american eagle), i might like it there too much that i would quit Hallmark. and alot of the regular customers like me and they trust my opinion on what they buy so i guess thats why they dont want me to leave. Oh ya, college life started for me, and its going pretty great, i met a few new cool friends and im doing alright in school actually, except that i took one class that was super early that i didnt get to go to classes. and i failed that class. One class, my vocals class was a waste of time, i dont want to talk too much about it, but whats funny is that i didnt even go to my finals for that class and my teacher gave me an A! well that made me happy. As of my love life, I do not have one, which is sort of good, because i get too busy and i need to manage my time and money more wisely. Well i think that is enough for now, so until later kids..HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!

Friday, June 23, 2006

Fri, 23 Jun 2006 13:54:48 GMT

ok, by nopw you guys should know where i post now..so there..

Monday, June 12, 2006

Mon, 12 Jun 2006 05:57:12 GMT

im half way done with all my college stuff, all i have to do now is signing up for the classes i want and then im done, i might start college early, i might take some summer classes to get started and get comfortable with the campus and what not. so i might start july 3. The driving lessons are going pretty well, but my parking sucks, my instructor makes me nervous, so i always park bad. haha. but everything else is good. I was supposed to go to work today but i didnt because i was so sick, i couldnt breathe well, and i felt so sorry because my co-worker had to work by herself for two hours. then the other worker had to come in and hour her actual hour to work. and i felt so bad. i want to make it up to her, but i have no idea.

Friday, June 02, 2006

Fri, 02 Jun 2006 03:24:35 GMT

the new CHRISTINA AGUILERA single "aint no other man" finally leaked yesterday night. And the leak is under internal investigation because there was only a few people who had the studio copy, so whoever leaked it is in major trouble. Since the leak happened sonybmg worldwide had to push up the radio release of the single from june 12 to today. Many radio stations have been playing the single over and over. and many comments from listeners have been great. Christina will also preview the single at the MTV movie awards on june 8. The leak of the single had also affected the release of the single to stores to june 19th.

to download the song, click the link below.
http://www.feproductions.net/anomfull.mp3

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

Wed, 24 May 2006 09:51:34 GMT

well like i promised, i will post some pictures from the aloha concert. the picture of the guy laying down, that is not me!!, thats crazy fred. haha. im gonna miss my choir class. love you guys. ill miss all the jokes and all the laughs that we all had and the big ass mirror that was in back of us, the one that everyone would stare at so check if they look ok. haha. and im gonna miss all the tired faces and sounds, because we were all so tired, we always had classes early in the morning. ill miss you guys. along with those pictures, i also have some grad pictures. I can beleive i graduated, i mean we graduated. (MAY 19, 2006) it dosent feel like we graduated. i dont think it really hit me yet. i cried a few times, but just little tears. i havent cried like in a sobbing type of cry. i guess it'll hit me when the right time comes.after i got leis then took them off to go change for project grad, more of my firends saw me so they gave me leis and each time i took off the leis more came. anyways after graduation, we went straight to project grad, we rode 10 trolleys to the secret site. we were all screaming on the ride. we arrived at dole cannery ballroom which we had this carnival/circus/club theme going on. we had candy stations, tatoo, jugglers, live bands, games, buffet dinner, dnace floor, all sorts of things. they gave away 3-4 ipods and 2 laptop computers and other prizes. i wanted taht ipod so bad. anyways here are the pictures.

http://premiumipods.freepay.com/?r=30312125